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Empty Apartment - Yellowcard
Call me out
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me down as I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes you forget where the heart is

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you’d say its okay
It’s okay
It’s okay

This is really a nice song~ Given to me by a friend~ Very very meaningful lyrics~

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(This is one reason why i hate blogging in frenster cos i cant post the utube directly into the blog)

I saw this preview in SL’s blog and it looks pwetty interesting~ Well at least even if the show’s boring, lookin at the hawtie in the show is SO NOT boring >_< ~
Movies that are in my wishlist :

Romeo & Juliet (starring Leonardo De Caprio and duno wads d actress name)
Another Cinderella Story
Zohan
High School Musical 2 AND 3

Things to prepare before I start to watch the show (this only apply to me)
TISSUE BOX!!! Cos i knw i’d be sobbing my hearts out seeing all stupid couples ended up happy ending and wondering why my love life sux badly lolx~

23th August 2008 - Saturday

It was also mom’s bday~ Today’s wether was kinda hot too~ I woke up with a fever~ 38.5 celcius~ Normal human temperature is 37~ So it was juz a bit fever~ Decided not to tell mom. Yet. Everything seems to be turning and my vision was bit yellowish and blur~ I’m still ok… Still walking… Steadily… Cant stand up for too long cos it’d get worse~ Mom was rushing me to get dressed cos she and dad are goin for a buffet lunch with my cousin~ Dad was angry and started saying something i cant remember well~ It has something to do with "Might as well dun go, dammit~"~ Mom was not really happy bout it and i juz took the keys and lock the gate~ Mom dropped me at the bridge opposite my college~ It seems eternity to get there~ The stairs seem so tall suddenly~

Finally reach college~ Zhao Yun wasnt there~ So i waited at the main block~ Darn~ Ask me come before 11am and he’s not even at the lecturer’s room~ Wait lorh~ Den the receptionist told me to go up to the Illustration department and look for some lady and when i went up, Zhao Yun answered the door~ He gave me the briefing~ Storyboard~ Crap..thts the last thing i need now is another freaggin storyboard argh!!!

After that i slowly walked all the way to the bus stand feeling all super dizzy~ I took a sit a couple of times so that i dont faint lolx~ Its embarrasing to faint in the middle of a mall and esp when ur all by urself~ Looks kinda pathetic ~_~ Altho i wish i dun mind fainting in the arms of my knight in shining armour *grins*~ Watch too much fairy tales RAWR~ Then i slowly walk home under the bright hot sun~ Urgh i wish it wasnt so hot today~ I went to the bed as soon as i reach home which was around 11:30am~ Adam was msging me and i wanna slp (I skipped some msgs cos i REALLY NEED TO SLEEP)~ He was scolding me and bugging me to call or at least msg blushie that im sick~ I msgd him~ Nope, still no reply~ Sighs~ As i remember the time when i woke up it was almost 7pm~ Hasnt eaten anything since morning~ I dun even feel like eating anything~ Feel so tired… I went down lie on the couch and decided to ask mom cook some white porridge without anything on it~ I went to the kitchen to get some crackers~ Jacobs~ Healthy food mah~ As i put into my mouth~ Yucks… Bitter~ Duno wether its my tongue got prob or the cracker IS bitter~ Then i went bk to the couch for a lil nap again~ Keep having dreams~ Loadsa dreams~ Earlier dream was bout Blushie~ Then i went dwnstairs and nap again i had another dream~ This time its bout Adam~ Woke up and had my porridge~ Decided to tell mom "mom,i caught a fever" and i was crying~ I think its a bad habit, like, the tears automatically comes down whenever i tell mom im sick~ Weird huh~

Went online to tell susu i cant maple today cos was sick~ Then logout and sleep at 10:15pm~ Adam still bug me bout calling him~ Couldnt do it~ The last time i called without notice, it was kinda awkward cos he said he’d talk to me later which he did and it was really awhile~ It felt kinda like, rejected or something~ Im already weak physically, dun make my heart weak pls…

Jonas Brothers: When You Look Me In The Eyes

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I’ve been looking for that someone,
I’ll never make it on my own
Dreams can’t take the place of loving you,
There’s gotta be a million reasons why it’s true.

And tell me that you love me.
Everything’s alright,
When you’re right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Oh

Missing someone with this song~ Missing his brown eyes~ So deep and crystal clear…

22th August 2008 - Friday

Last night i was in maple and was chatting with my friend~ He was telling me bout his past~ It was pretty sad but i guess thats life~ You cant have everything perfect and happy all the time~ How God planned for us is pretty interesting~ Ups and downs~ You may see the person looking all happy on the outside yet there is so much in the inside that a person might not show you~ He was saying he hated alot stuff~ I used to hate everything~ He even made a list out of it~ I guess as i grew up, i learnt to throw away the hatred and turn it to "dislike"~ Hate is a pretty strong word~ I still use the word hate to certain stuff like erm… *thinks* ANYWAY, i made a list of my own hate back when i was younger~

1) Hate my dad (still do…no comment bout that~ Started ever since he hit my bloody nose and hit again as if the blood is not there)
2) Hate my mom (Not anymore~ As i rethink, she did alot sacrifices to brought me up~ Including the part she protected me when my dad used to blame me for some stuff i did)
3) Hate my stubborness (I guess this is something i changed it to dislike~ I always get scolding from people for being stubborn~ My parents, my family, even my friends~ Sometimes, being stubborn helps in a way~ Well thats what i think)
4) Hate me being stupid (stupid in a sense of relationships~ The most stupid thing i did was to trust a guy and go ga-ga over it and he juz so selamba with it~ The 1st time it happened was my 1st ex~ I’d go heels over the moon for him and gone sick for him~ Oh, not to mention the cheesecake~ 2nd time is now~ "I’ll always be with you"~ Dont say stuff you dont mean it~ That pissed me off~)
5) Hate my body (Not that i hated it~ I dislike me being so bodyless and the idiots would say bout it~ Its not like I keep my body in a nice shape so that idiots would drool over it~ So what if i’m thin and skinny? At least i get to eat whatever i want and i dont gain a weight~ So stop bitching bout people’s body =_=lll)
6) Hate myself for not standing up for myself (Back when i was with Adam, everytime he scolds me, i’d keep quiet~ Even when anyone scold me, i’d let them scold~ I always get tongue tied and nothing seems to come out from my mouth~ But if i were to ask to talk non verbally, i’d be fine~ *sighs*)
7) Hate my attitude (Attitude problem~ Lazy, short tempered, rough, no manners and erm… selfish~ Those are the things i MUST change~ *yet its so hard to T_T*)
Hated what i’ve done to my ex-es (Couldve been more caring and understanding~ *aka more stupid* Pfft)

In a way, time passed and i’ve changed (I think…*erm*)~ The years before i met adam was terible~I couldve list out hundred if i wanted to~ He taught me to think positively and look things the other way~ I even break pens / pencils just to relieve stress and anger~ I break so many that my fingers always ends up bleeding or hurt (and my pencils are getting lesser >_<)~ I stopped doing that when i entered college and i had friends to support me~ I meant friends~ Yeah, and everyone thought college life was all bout competiting with each other but yeap, i found a few true friends there~ It was before i failed and moved on to a new batch of selfish peeps~ Therefore, i said my goodbyes (we still keep in contact and go out yamcha)~ Not to mention my lecturers that taught me well and give me full support~ My favourites in this college is always and will always be Miss Pinky and Miss May-Ann~

The one that truly changed me was Miss Pinky~ I remembered my 1st presentation was "How to take care of hamsters"~ I’m a nervous freak and i seek her for advice~ She gave me such strong motivation that i remembered i had a tear when she talked to me~ I guess i’m not as strong as i seem to be haha~ After her classes i began to have more confident in myself and trust that i can do it no matter what~ It seems easy for alot people to have confidence in themselves~ Not to me~ My parents always look down on me~ No matter what i do, how good i am at certain things~ My parents NEVER in my entire life praise me for things i did~ Words that a child wanted to hear from their parents is "I love you" or small praises~ I never get that~ What i get was "xxx is better than you, why cant u be like xxx?" or "Whats so good bout drawing? You’d end up begging at a corner some day" Why cant they just say "I’m proud of you"~ Pinky always have the right words for me~ Words that i’ve wanted to hear~ *sighs* Thnx Miss Pinky, you changed me to a better person =)

Christine Glass - My Love Will Get You Home
If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home,
Boy, my love will get you home.

Lately into Hitz.Fm~ Heh heh~ Trying to dwnload all d nice nice songs *_*

Simple Plan - Your Love Is Just A Lie

I fall asleep by the telephone
It’s 2 O’clock and I’m
waiting up alone
Tell me where have you been?
I found a note with another name
You blow a kiss, but it just
don’t feel the same
Cause I can feel that you’re gone

Your love is just a lie

Love this song~ Love the lyrics~ Love Simple Plan =)
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Christina Aguilera - Hurt

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you’ve done
Forgive all your mistakes
There’s nothing I wouldn’t do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call ya
But I know you won’t be there

Ohh I’m sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn’t do
And I’ve hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won’t admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide ’cause it’s you I miss
And it’s so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, oooh yeah

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?

There’s nothing I wouldn’t do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

Ohh I’m sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn’t do
And I’ve hurt myself, ohh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I’ve missed you
Since you’ve been away
Ooh, it’s dangerous
It’s so out of line
To try and turn back time

I’m sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn’t do
And I’ve hurt myself by hurting you

For some reason, this song made me cried that night~ *Sighs*
I’ve been listening to alot sad songs lately lolx~

What does the word sorry means to you? To some people, its a big thing~ To some people, its a small matter~ To me, its just a word~ It doesnt rewind back the things you’ve done~ It cant undo what you’ve said or done~ I used to watch this movie and the gal said "if there’s sorry, why would we need police for?" Haha~ In some way, its true~

My fren did something and i think its not her fault~ And yet she said sorry to everyone so that they’d be happy~ How lame is tht? I once ksed a guy and one of the member came looking after me and said i ks him~ no one told me tht guy wasnt in pt~ The funny part was he said this "ok, u said sry le..settle liao"~ ~_~lll the magical word of sorry haha~

If sry can turn back time, i’d say so many sorry to change alot of things~ If sorry can make ppl happy, i’d be happy to say it~ If sorry can change everything, i’d kneel dwn and say sorry~ If sorry can mend ur heart, i’m so sorry~ If sorry can make you trust me more and gain back the 20% of trust, i’m so so so sorry for losing it…

13th August 2008 - Wednesday

Copywriting presentation~

*post edited* =D