I cant miss you.
15th September – Friday
I woke up feeling very down. I dreamt of my ex. The one I loved a lot. I don’t know why and I even forgot bout my dream but I know I dreamt of him and me happily together, which I know it’s impossible. That time, I know I missed him a lot. I hasn’t thought bout him for a very long time, and suddenly I missed him a lot. Do I still like him after so long? Nah… I love my boyfriend, how can it be? But… (Sigh)I wanna see him again, I can’t. If I do, I know I’d like him again. Better not take the risk. Pola even told me to stay away from him. I saw his profile today and I saw him with a girl. He moved on. I don’t know if I’m happy or sad but it’s a mixture of both. I felt like crying and laughing at the same time. But all I know, the moment I’m writing this part, I’m feeling down and sad. Little angel tells me “Move on, you got your own boyfriend now. You should be happy. Not sad. He’s happy. You’re happy. Forget bout him”! I can’t… I just can’t… Little devil tells me “you still love him. Go find him! Settle it face to face. Talk to him. Call him. Say hello or something” No! I can’t! AAARRRGGGHHH!!! Help me!!! Tell me what to do!!!
