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19^th April 2006 – Wednesday

The day of my operation. Have to puasa from last night till morning. So I got up, get ready and went. Mom even went the wrong way and we were a little late. Suppose to meet the doctor at 8:30am, but we got there at 9am. I tried to stay calm, message my boyfriend, listen to songs, and I felt better. When we reached there, I’m still calm but my hands are cold. Then the nurse asked me to go to room A1, and I saw another patient on the bed. So I changed and waited for everything. Mom kept telling me not to be afraid but it looks like she’s more frightened than me. Surprisingly, as I waited on the bed, I’m not scared, but it was so damn cold. I was shivering like mad. I was even wondering how cold it is when the nurses came into the room with the doctor. The Malay nurse kept saying “Amoi arr.. jangan takut arr. Takde apa punya. Ini operation kecil. Sekejap sudah ok. Nanti you tutup mata, then you buka mata, sudah operation.” Seems FAST… then they pushed me to the operation wad and I saw so many people. I quickly told the doctor I don’t want injections, I’m terrified of injections and the doctor gave me something to breathe on. It was some kinda gas. I remembered I waited very long time to sleep. I even saw the doctor washing her hands, and she kept asking me to breathe more. I tried but the longer I waited, the smell of the gas got heavier, and the next thing I know, I’m on the bed. But during that time, I don’t remember anything. I woke up feeling dizzy and I saw the things are turning and turning. In my thoughts that time, I was thinking “Eh, I thought I go for operation, how come I’m so selamba sleeping here?” then I wanna touch my lump see if it’s still there or not. As I touch it, MY GOODNESS!!! It was damn bloody pain! Then only I realized I just had my operation. I felt so tired and dizzy so I went back to sleep. I saw the doctor came in and asked how am I, and told me the lump was taken out, bla bla bla… he even asked if I wanna see it or not. I don’t wanna see it. It’s disgusting. I dare to see it on TV, but not the live thing, esp if it’s IN my body. Mom saw it. She said it’s like ‘tau foo fah’. EWWW… sadly to hear that my insurance can’t pay for my med fee as it’s only 3 months. So mom gotta pay around RM2000 for it. She was kinda upset and I regretted doing the operation. That would really help a lot but too bad. Stayed at the hospital till 4pm. I heard the doctor said she maybe got cancer. But it’s not confirm yet because the report is not out yet. I thought this kinda things only happen in TV, but I realized something, life is unexpected. Like mine, I didn’t know I’d be having the operation. If I don’t ask the doctor to do checkup, the lump might get bigger and I don’t even know what will happen to me.

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